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Sunday, April 15, 2012
Well, not today. But soon. I have exactly 18 months before the big 3-0 and I don’t know what to do with myself. Where exactly did the last 10 years go!? I have no idea. I wonder if we will ever really know those things.
Today I want to speak with you all about resolutions. My resolutions, to be exact. I want to speak with you about the fact that my new years resolutions have largely gone down the toilet thus far this year.
I blame my new job and my inability to focus on anything but said new job on this downfall. I did well on my resolutions for about a month, then I started my new job and moved and have not really had the motivation to work on my resolutions since then. This whole “working full time” thing is for the birds, I tell you. I keep waiting for someone to call me up and tell me they want to pay me money to just hang out around the office and color with my markers. But for some reason, that doesn’t seem to happen. So until then, I guess I will work a real job. Humph. Oh well.
So January 23, 2012 was my Chinese New Years Resolution date. April 15, 2012 is becoming my New-Chinese New Years Resolution date. As of today, I am recommitting myself to these suckers, and by golly; I’m going to accomplish them. No job stress will get in my way any longer.
I’m presenting my resolutions to the blogging world for your sustaining vote: Here they are, in no particular order:
1. Watch all 9 sessions of General Conference live (Already partially failed at this one, but that is what repentence is for)
2. Run a race for charity (I do have a couple in mind)
3. Train for a ½ marathon (SO I haven’t started yet, but I did buy the book)
4. Compete in two triathlons (I may have run out of time on this one)
5. Go to the dentist (I now have dental insurance, which is a step in the right direction)
6. Talk to 4-5 (non-work-related) strangers a day (I need to develop a tracking system for this one... any ideas?)
7. Volunteer 3-4 hours a month (Training starts tomorrow! Whoopee!!)
8. Write something for 250 words a day (I did good on this one for awhile; time to get back on track)
9. Exercise 3 hours a week (It’s too hot!!! I need to buy a gym membership!!)
10. Go on a trip to Nashville with Emma (I have my Nashville Savings fund started)
11. Read all of the standard works (This is a particularly lofty goal, but I’m going to do my best)
12. No sugary junk food all year long (Bah!! Miserable failure thus far! I’m starting over tonight… well, maybe tomorrow)
13. No fast food burgers and fries (So far, so good)
14. Pray every night (does it count if I’m half asleep?)
15. No shopping on Sunday (unless the ox is in the mire… whatever that means)
16. No yelling at cars (was probably a more realistic goal before I moved to a place that has this thing called rush hour)
17. No computer in the mornings (not too difficult considering my internet rarely works)
18. Monthly temple attendance (so far, so good)
19. Take guitar lessons (hopefully this fall)
20. Pass an institute class (I moved halfway through the semester, so maybe this next semester)
21. Conquer my fear of the OBGYN (‘nuff said…)
So, there you have it (because of course, you needed to know all that). I hope to turn this blog into a place where I can have some degree of accountability over my goals. Pretty much, I want to change my life. A lot. And since I am 18 months shy of 30, now seems to be a pretty good time to start. Don’t you think?
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I’ve been at my new job, house, etc for 2.5 weeks now. I haven’t seen my sister and her babies in 2.5 weeks. I’m starting to go through withdrawals. Sally the Car squeaks whenever I turn her on. I think it’s because she misses Becky and the kids. Or maybe it is because tomorrow is her 240,000th birthday and she has been on hospice for the last year. Who knows?
I tried to give my co-workers some time before I let them in on my craziness. After spending our lunch break today explaining to them the wonders of a certain Fluffy the Turtle, I think I’ve officially became the grief counselor who is “a little quirky.” Oh well. I’m sure there’s a therapeutic benefit to being a little quirky.
Anyway, in other news, I am still afraid of getting fired, but I am trying not to let that hold me back from putting a major effort into succeeding at my job. We’ll see how that goes. To be safe though, I am still sending out my resume, and I am trying to quickly build up an emergency fund to prepare for the worst. We’ll see how that goes.
Once I get settled, I want to start doing something enriching and non-work related during my spare time. I maybe want to start taking a class of some sort. I am thinking either guitar or Spanish or maybe some sort of craft class. I haven’t decided yet. But I figure that I will need something to enhance my own mental health. I’m going to wait a few months though, until I get settled with the job thing (and make sure that they like me enough to keep me).
Here’s some good news: I have health insurance now! After 4 years of not taking any chances, I now can engage in reckless activities without fear of the catastrophic implications of hospitalization. Here’s some other good news: I am going to UTAH for Easter! Now, what is to love about Easter, one might ask? Mom and Dad and Grandmas!!! Yay! I was thinking about not going because I don’t really have time off at my new job yet, and tickets are pricey. But I am honestly afraid of the negative implications that missing Easter in Utah will have on my mental health. And my mental health is worth much more than an airplane ticket (even a super-expensive one). I may be eating rice and beans for the next six months to make up for it, but I don’t mind. Yay, UTAH!!
That’s all for now folks. Sorry about how boring this blog is becoming. One of these days, I’m going to take me a creative writing class and hopefully come up with interesting things to write about. Until then, God be with you.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
It was a lovely graduation ceremony; very short and sweet. There were only 16 of us graduating, and it was nice. It felt very personal and intimate.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Lately though, I've been reading a great deal of personal blogs, and I have been starting to see blogging as a legitimate way to exercise my creativity. I find it somewhat inspiring to read blogs about the lives of people I've never met, but to see how much purpose and soul goes into their storytelling. I don't know if I can be that person who shares so much of her personal life with the general public. Yeah, I know that by posting the details of my life on the internet, anyone is free to read about it. But few enough people actually do that I hardly feel like an open book. But there's just something magical about reading people's stories. It gives me insight on humanity. It reminds me that I am not as strange as I sometimes think I am. It reminds me that of all of those little things that I struggle with, there is someone out there who has struggled before. I love those moments when I read someones blog and I think to myself: "You do that too!? I thought I was the only one!!"
I think I want to become a blogger. Rather than just having a blog, I think I want to be one of those people who helps to connect the world through the sharing of unique experiences. I'm not looking for more readers per se, but I am looking to improve my blog and improve my writing habits. I'm not entirely sure I have the discipline and the guts to take the time to share my stories, but I am going to try and see what happens.
In the meantime, here are a few links that have inspired my recent personal blog fetish. Do you have any that you would like to share with me?
HopefulLeigh, a blog about Christianity, singleness, and life in the south
Loralee's Looney Tunes, a blog about parenting, death, and raising boys
The Jacksons, a blog about grief and loss
The Nienie Dialogues, a blog about parenting, overcoming tragedy
Don't worry; I'm sure I'll find more.
Wish me luck!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Sally is my wonder car. Unfortunately, Sally has been feeling less than wonderful lately. In April, I found out that Sally had leaks in her radiator. A week later, one of my hospice patients backed into her and left her with a couple of nice gouges in the bumper. I, being the nice car owner that I am, decided to use the insurance payout that the hospice patient got me to pay the remainder of my summer tuition. That same spring, a tree fell down in front of her and knocked out her antannae. In August, my work supervisor broke her door handle.
I have known for several months now that Sally is a hospice patient. That means that she is receiving comfort measures only (including regular oil changes and basic maintenance), and no aggressive treatment (which would include a transmission replacement or something of the like). I have been praying that Sally will simply last through my graduation, which is in 81 days (not that anyone is counting). Alas, it is appearing that Sally the wonder car does not have 81 days of life in her. I'm no mechanic, but she seems to be knocking on death's door.
This puts me into a predicament. I finally, by the skin of my teeth and using every last penny of my savings, paid my tuition for this semester. And now I think I will be having to buy a new car. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but probably soon.
I'm trying not to be mad at Sally. She has lived a tough life and has had her fair share of challenges. She has been a great friend and companion. And she, like me, is from Utah. So of course we are tough. I'm trying not to be mad at Sally, but she picked an inopportune moment to die. I wish she could have died after tomorrow, so that I can go to presentaion I am doing at my internship. And take my trip to WV that was planned for this weekend. But sometimes people pick bad times to die. Cars do too.
Sally may not be completely dead. I'm still waiting for the official pronouncement. But even if she is not dead, I don't think she has 81 days left. Let us celebrate the life of Sally the Car.